Random Thoughts

Winter was saying yesterday that I should post more often, but without something to say I'll just put random bits of crap together.

Why is that once people get old that they think they are entitled to respect even though they are assholes? I would respect my elders if they weren't evil and trying to steal from me.

When did talking in abbreviations become appropriate in normal life? If you don't have the time to say the entire word keep you mouth shut.

I've noticed that my 10 hour work day is really more like a minimum of 11 hours a day. I don't know when I let that happen, but it has and their seems to be no stopping it.

As a comic geek I am really bummed that in Spider Man, Peter Parker and Mary Jane's marriage has been erased. A marriage that in real time existed for twenty years now never happened.

I realized that although I would love to have a girlfriend I don't have the ability to put up with the bullshit that you get with most girls. Is it sad that I am just to tired to try to date? I just don't have the energy to try to do get to know someone and deal with all of their baggage now too.

I think that this won't be a problem since the only people even mildly interested in me are gay men. If I have to feel any more awkward because some gay guy thinks I am cute I may just shoot myself.

Well that is it for now. Later.

Yeah, I guess I am a jerk.

It has been pointed out to me a lot lately that I am a jerk. It doesn't bother me that much, at all really. I guess about five or six years ago I just got sick of being a "nice" person who got stepped on all the time. I know it makes me selfish sometimes, but at least I don't feel taken advantage of all time anymore. I used to be the guy who do almost anything anyone would ask me to do. You need a ride home and live a hundred miles away, sure no problem. Need me to cover your shift at work so you can go get high, I sure will. You won't consider going out with me because you would rather sleep with my friend, that's great and can I get you a cup of coffee.

Really once I decided that I mattered and I deserved to be happy too, it was easy for me to be a jerk a lot of the time. Now if you ask me to do something I really don't want to do I'll tell you no and if you insist I'll very likely smile and tell you to go to hell. My life may suck a great amount of the time, but at the very least I can try to make myself happy.