Learn to Shut Up About Your Damn 99%

I am so close to unfriending an old friend on facebook.  I have known her for 12 years and she is currently divorcing my best friend.  My biggest problem with her is her recent shift in politics.  Now I am conservative and I don't really talk politics often unless someone asks me my opinion.  My friend has become more liberal which is fine because I don't believe that you have to the same political beliefs to maintain a friendship.  What really offends me is her constant posting of links that are about her political beliefs.  She has already done so many things that don't agree with lately that this is just the last straw.  I know that one day soon she will be off my friends list so maybe I can still be my friend.

Demoted and it feels good

Well the time since my last post I have had some big changes. I was moved to a different store that had even more problems than my old store had. It didn't help that my boss kept using word "craphole" when talking about the store. My first day at the new store I was told that I could be fired because of the numbers my old store ran my last week. I knew that those numbers had been faked, but I have no proof and my boss didn't believe me. After 2 days of not knowing if I would still have a job the next day, I told my boss I was demoting myself. I have hated this position as long as I had had it and couldn't do it anymore.

So two weeks later I was demoted officially, although I was the last to know. I was moved to the store I started at and I am so much happier. I actually have days off. For the last year I worked at least a few hours of everyday. The first week I was in heaven, I only worked the 48 hours I was scheduled instead of the 70 plus hours I have been doing. I have returned to working under my old boss who is very hands off instead of the micromanaging that I have had for so long.

Steph noticed the difference right away. I am not this stressed out beaten down wreak anymore and I feel good about my life again. I am still looking for a new job, but I can at least live with one I have now.

Job, Wedding, and General Bitching

So how long does it take before your blog is considered inactive? I would say that the year plus since I have logged on to my blog would have been more than sufficient. I just reread my last post. Update on the promotion, the job still sucks. Now I have managers who don't listen to me instead of just crew. At the moment I am looking for another job. This week I have worked 40 hours in three days and managed to get one of my managers fired in less than two weeks after getting assigned to my store. Another one of my managers had his mother die suddenly which makes for a bad start to my week. I have finally got to a point where I know that I will never be happy doing this job. Once I realized that I at least feel good about my decision to leave.

On the personal front Steph and I are engaged. I asked her on her birthday at the end of this last year. Getting married this next April and all the planning is underway. I really don't have a lot to do with most of it, by my choice. I care about the when and the where and who will be there, but do I care about the flowers? Heck no. Steph has her binder and appointments and I show up when necessary to give my opinion.

To link to two things together I think that why I hate my job so much right now is because my personal life is really good. When the rest of my life sucked I don't think I realized that my job sucked. It just used to seem all the same so I didn't really notice. Now that I am happy at home I guess the fact that I am never happy at work stands out more now.

After a post with too much reflection on life I have to bring back the geek. This is the summer of comic book movies. Thor was release in May and Green Lantern last week. I have yet to see Green Lantern but the reviews don't look so good. Thor was really goaskod, not wonderful but good. Now I have people asking me questions about comics. I wouldn't mind but they are dumb questions sometimes. I have a Facebook friend who messages me every time I am on to ask me stupid shit. I know way to much about comics, but really I am not your on call source for comic related information.

Well until next time true believers.

Hello There

Well after several months of not blogging I felt it was time for an update. Well the biggest news is that I got promoted since I my last update. Actually I am about to be updated a second time on this coming Tuesday. This means I will finally be in charge of my own store. I am excited and kind of nervous. I am even more nervous since I can't tell anyone at work, even my boss until after it has already happened.



It all started Tuesday when my district manager's boss came in to talk to me. This got me in a bit of a panic because the idea of a big wig at our company coming to talk to me was not good. First thought was that I had done something really bad. He sat me down and asked me if I was ready to run my own store. Then I heard the situation, to make a long store short it involved criminal charges and an electronic monitoring braclet.



The good news is a 10% raise and more autonomy at work. The bad news is I can't tell anyone until they make they fire the guy on Tuesday. What makes this harder is that my boss knows something is up because my new district manager came to talk to me at work while she was there later that night. So my boss and my crew keeps asking me what is going on and all I can say is that I can't tell them.



Naturally not being able to tell anybody at work made me have to tell everyone else in my life as soon as posible starting with the girlfriend and moving on down the list. That night I was so excited and nervous that I could barely sleep. Now I just what the time to pass faster so I can just get it over with.

This Is My Life and It May Suck

Well I have not even tried to keep this thing up lately. I just don't have to a lot to say. Work has been a real chore. The sexual harasser at work has been sent to another store after giving a girl at work a lap dance in the office. We were sent a manager from another store as a replacement and he kind of sucks. I have been around this store long enough to see what all the problems are, but I have no real power to make the changes to fix them.

I just realize how much I miss my friends back in BG. I love my girlfriend, but I have no real friends of my own. When we aren't spending time together I am alone or at work. It really sucks. I know I could spend time with my girlfriend's friends, but I always feel out of place. I just miss being a half hour or less from my closest friends, because three hours is just to much. We're planing to go to visit next month so that should help.

I am now living poorer than I was my first year away at college. I am almost at the point of choosing which bills I can pay every month and eating ramen three times a day. I exaggerate, but only a little. It is sad that I am making the most I ever have and still have less money than I did a year ago. Oh well there isn't much I can do about it.

My Parents May Be Insane and A New Job

This weekend I had my parents visit for the holiday weekend. The problem is that I had told them not to come up, but they came anyway. The Monday before my mom called me to say they were coming for a visit. I asked them not to come because I had to work the whole weekend. They came anyway, so I had to come up with some time to see them. My girlfriend and her mom decided to have a cook out and invite them for the fourth. This was the best we could all come up with on short notice.

So Saturday comes and I a just getting up for my parents who were coming at noon only to hear my parents at my door. I freaked out. I was so mad that I just basically told them to leave and give me at least an hour to get ready, and by told I mean screamed. This isn't even mentioning the fact that I wasn't alone when my parents showed up three hours early without even calling. That made things even more awkward. That I think freaked my girlfriend out more than me standing outside yelling at my parents at 9 in the morning.

After my parents came back I told them in no uncertain terms that the next time they invited themselves or showed up hours early, I wouldn't even answer the door. Later still we had lunch with my girlfriend's parents. It went alright, but I wasn't looking for them to meet anytime soon. My girlfriend also meet my brother for the first time since he came along for the ride.

Later I found out that I pissed off my girlfriend's dad by having them meet my parents. I understand and agree that it was too soon, but it also wasn't my idea. So great, my family really sucks.

I finally have a new job since this one is the worst one I have ever had and that is saying a lot. I am actually only working for a different franchise of the same company. This company doesn't seem retarded like the current one and has a lot of perks like better vacation time, bonuses, closer location. Meanwhile I have had to suffer through some really awkward conversations with my current employer since I had to talk to them before I could interview with the other company. Worst conversation of my entire life. I mean how do you tell your boss that you hate your job and are looking elsewhere. I was so glad after that to be able to put in my two weeks notice since I kind of burned my bridges there. Now I am just serving out my time and trying to not just get fired in these last few days. I love my life.

Life In a New Town

Well I thought that the moving would be the hard part, and it was hard. I am still unpacking because even though I had five full days to finish it I totally didn't. Things are mostly put away except the pile of 8 boxes in my bedroom. Oh well I will get that done on Saturday.

I started my new job on Monday. It is probably the most horrible job I have ever had. While it is almost the same job I had before, it is far worse. I knew that some things would be different, but I just didn't think that it would be this bad. I know I can be overly dramatic sometimes, but now isn't one of them. I have never been "corrected" for doing things that I know for a fact are right before in my life. These people have no clue how to run their business and it drives me insane. To top it off I feel like I have no one to talk to there. All of the people there are just irritating. I have this weekend off work so I am spending it applying for new jobs and fine tuning my resume.

Other than the job part of my life, I am actually doing pretty well. The move went smooth enough, the girlfriend is happy to not have a long distance relationship again (as am I), I forgot how much I missed about living alone, I have a washer and dryer that don't take quarters for the first time in 7 years, and I got my internet installed and it costs me half as much as it has for the last 3 years. I can't think about the last one too much or I will realize how much money I wasted (just did $720). Except for the money thing those are all good things.

Time to Move

Well today I being a two day process of moving to the new place in Cleveland. I will have live in a even smaller place and have to be on a strict budget. I know it sounds to good to be true. I have to get used to having no cable and I won't have internet until Friday. So I have to get used to network TV and reading for the next few days while I unpack. Saturday we are heading back to BG for the night to go out one last time. This is another one of those times were I have been told I must get drunk. Last time I heard that was on my birthday, and that didn't turn out so well (meaning I throw up a lot). Oh well I guess once every six months won't kill me.

Yep, I'm Moving

Well I now have a new job (still shitty) and an apartment (super small). I can't help but feel nervous still. It is still a huge change and I have so much packing and moving to do that I don't feel excited yet. My last big move was to college seven years ago, so I guess I am a little out of practice. The fact that I have a wonderful girl who loves me waiting there is the only thing that really makes going through all of this trouble worth it.

Right now I am so broke that I will have to pull a big chunk out of my emergency fund to make the move happen since I am pay for rent on two places for a few months. This is on top of the money I have spent traveling to and from the new place to see the girl and find an apartment. Now that I have I place I don't have to make that drive for a week or two. This is good also because it is a terribly boring drive as well as being two and a half hours long.

I am looking forward to leaving my current job. I just feel like I have done everything I can for the place. I know that I would never get promoted again and that would be the only way I could get more done. Still I feel bad because there are not enough people in the company to really replace me at the moment. As angry as that place makes me sometimes, it is still like another home to me and the people there are like my family. Going to a job that is almost the same for another company doesn't make me feel any better. Oh well time to move on.

Well I know I have not posted in forever, but who cares. I have found I don't want to post a lot when I am actually happy, so I haven't been posting. I am at the moment a little upset. My girlfriend is moving to Cleveland. It is good for her and she will have a better job. But now my girlfriend will live 150 miles away. This sucks, so I applied for a job online. I already have an interview set up for next week, but that still means some time apart. I had hoped that when I got another job it would be one that would be completely different from my current job. It doesn't look like that will be the case, since I am trying to get a job that is pretty much the same job I have now only in Cleveland.

I still haven't told my parents that I am planning on moving. I already told my boss and my friends, but I just don't want to worry them so I'll tell them once I have a definite plan. I don't think it will bother them, I just think they will be worried. At least they will know where I am which is something they can't say right now about my wayward brother. Anyway I am just hoping for the best so I can have a plan for the future, even if it is in Cleveland.

Not such a Sweet Day

Just a question, did everyone else in the world know that yesterday was Sweetest Day? Apparently I am just stupid. In the five years I was single I seem to have to forgotten what month this greeting card holiday was even in. Unfortunately my girlfriend did not, awkward huh?

Economic Crisis?

Well the economy may be going to hell, but gas prices are going down. So it was great not having to pay over fifty dollars for gas so I was really happy. I may be a horrible person, but screw everyone else I saved some money.

A Sickeningly Fun Weekend

Well I had a good weekend for the most part. I got to go out with my girlfriend, two of her friends, and Becky on Saturday night. Problem was I drank a lot. Very stupid. I don't remember most of the last bar we were at and I was so sick I couldn't leave my girlfriend's house. I have never been that drunk before, it was embarrassing. Nothing like spending time nauseous on the floor of your girlfriend's bathroom.

The next morning I only felt a little better so I was driven home and slept until noon. I woke up and decided not to waste any more of my weekend and went to visit my friends in Toledo. I had been invited up to celebrate my friend Maria passing a major point in her graduate program early in the week and I wanted to congratulate her. I went with them to the mall and helped babysit while the my friends were shopping and then we all went out to dinner. By then I was mostly over my nausea and could eat more than the crackers and tomato soup I had eaten earlier in the day. Except for the way I felt on Sunday it was a really good weekend. Next time I go out I am just not going to drink.

No Private Life

Well I was reminded today that nothing stays secret for long. I know that everyone in our small company knows I am dating some else at work. While I knew that this was a really badly kept secret but, I just assumed that it would stay quiet just a little longer. I just wanted to have no one at work knowing or caring about my personal life. Oh well, what is done is done. I don't care that much or anything, I just feel like my privacy is gone.

Other than that I have been really busy this week. Work has been busy with all of the college kids moving back in. I am still not done unpacking. I think that this is becoming an endless process. I am going home tomorrow for a family lunch thing at my grandma's house. So I have a hour and half drive each way to be there for a few hours to look forward to, great.

New Levels of Torture

The moving has been over for a week now, but the unpacking may have another week to go. My room is still in god awful shape, the rest of the place is only better because my roommate has done the work. I went out last night to buy several space bags to try to make my stuff fit. While I am not convinced that it will, I have to do something since it is making me go nuts. I can't stand bumping into stuff that is lying around. I have today off work and I am promising myself that I will have this at least mostly finished.

Meanwhile I have been more than a little distracted from the job hunt. I also had no Internet until Wednesday so my options were limited to say the least. The only thing that has gotten me through the last two at work has been the thought of quiting. Just like that horrible day I survived by scripting my resignation letter. I have to find something different before I loose what is left of my sanity.

Moving Day is here. I just want it to be over with. I finished all of the packing on Tuesday. I still have all of that last minute stuff to pack. I am also sure I will be totally overwhelmed by how much stuff I really have. I am still scared to loose so much closet space, but I am totally willing to do so to be rid of the bros next door. They were running through the halls screaming at midnight last night. I hate them. Oh well time to get going.

Work F***ing sucks

I had a horrible day. With out getting into anything specific I was treated really badly. If it was the first time I would maybe be able to deal with it, but this is something like the fifth. I am totally quitting, I just need to find a new job. Monday is when I intend talk to my bosses about it. After 11 years I am just done.

One of those moments

I know we all do stupid things, but why do I have the superhuman ability to make an ass out of myself? I chose the worst possible moment to do and say the wrong thing. I don't know if I just get nervous or I have a rare form of brain damage. All I know is that I have that moment when I realize that I just need to get out before it gets worse. I am stupid.

Just a comment

I just saw the movie 21 and it was really good.

A Pretty Good Week

Well I must say that this week has been kind of weird for me. I went out with friends twice, drank quite a bit, and got asked out on a date. None of these things usually happen for me. One I may on rare occasion go out with friends, but never usually twice in a week. When I do go out I don't normally get as drunk as I did. Not wasted drunk, but to the point where parts of the night get a little fuzzy. I even drank beer and I never drink beer. Until the very end of the night it was really fun.

Then last night I went out again and saw the Dark Knight. The movie was awesome. Not only from the comic geek prospective, mainly because it was just a good movie. It was even worth dragging myself up from a long nap. Afterward we all walked over to a nearby bar and had a few drinks. Then I was a little caught off guard when one of the girls that we were out with asked me out. More shocking was that she was not a raving lunatic. You see I haven't been out on a date or even tried to date in a while (five years). So after a long time of feeling like a social reject the thought that someone wanted to go out with me is a little strange. Anyway, I'll just see how it goes.